These days, once again—they showed me why I live.

... why I didn’t kill myself yet. The drama that is my life, it is why I am still walking around on this planet. Call it masochsism, call it whatever, I don’t care. The pain it is causing me keeps me alife, it is telling me I am not dreaming.

Still, it doesn’t reach my inner self. Never did. I know I’ll die one day without really ever having felt something.

“Game over” it said tonight. I made the same mistakes I have done before. Hurting someone who did not deserve it. At least not that way. I truly am the perfect example of a Parasite Single.

What do I know? I’ll get older, that’s for sure. If not now, then one day, I’ll regret all the pain I caused other people. I am sorry, yet I won’t apologize. That is what life is like. At least for me ...